Pluther

Well, since I couldn't think of a name for this blog, I used the security code to create it. Not very clever, I know but I'm not feeling too inspired today. I was looking over a friends notes on her website and found the following:

"Just because you don't know your direction, doesn't mean you don't have one. Sometimes lost is where you need to be."

I've been feeling very lost for the past year or so. I can't seem to get it together. I'm having trouble being content on my own. I've been so used to having someone in my life and I miss that constant companionship. You don't realize how much you get used to something or rely on something (or someone) till it's gone. I've gotten several hobbies that I love and can do them on my own no problem, I have my stitch n' bitch on Tuesday nights, and now dinner with Pam also which I love, but the weekends are still hard for me. We used to do things together and now it's like I don't exist. I need to find myself, find who I am I guess. How can I expect someone else to be content with me if I'm not with myself? Too many questions and not enough answers, very frustrating. Maybe I should concentrate on my quilting on the weekends. I've been really neglecting that.

I spent last Sunday at my sister Peg's but they eat dinner so late and then it was dark out when I was leaving. I still have trouble seeing at night and so avoid driving if I can help it. Of course this really cuts down on what you can do, really sucks. I need to try to overcome this somehow. Ugh. Tara went hiking with me but now all week my knees have been hurting me. I really need to lose weight, but how the hell do you do that when you're in pain? Again, too many questions.

Peg invited me for dinner on Easter but I'd already accepted an invitation from the old folks across the street. They'll be alone and they're close, and I'd not had any other offers so I said yes. Nancy's a good cook and I enjoy her food, and their company. Good folks.

I got my hair trimmed last night. My hair dresser, Justine is a pip. I told her I wanted my lip and chin waxed and so she gooped the wax on then proceeded to tear half my face away with it. lol. Man that hurt and now this morning I have pimples where she waxed. The woman is a fiend with wax! She told me never to shave it since it comes back in heavier. I told her I only did that in emergencies but will continue to wax and then pluck in between hair cuts. You know, I went from not growing hair on my legs and pits to having it on my lip and chin. What's up with that???

Another overcast day out. Roomy won't be home for dinner tonight. Not sure if I'm gonna pick something up on the way home or not. Will see when the time comes I guess. Don't feel too motivated today. Hate going home to an empty house. Well no, I've got to stop thinking like that, the puppies always welcome me home. Besides I can't have someone as the center of my life anymore cause when they leave, it leaves such a hole in my heart that I'm always trying to fill. I need to just let someone share my life that way your life is more balanced. Just need to get a life first! lol

Well, that's all for now. Need to get some work done so will end here. Till next time.....